Monday, November 8, 2010

Happy & Unsettled

Maybe it is all the wedding blogs,  maybe its a few of my friends, or the latest episode I watched of Kourtney taking Scott back.. but something has me in hard place.

I love that we are surrounded by choices in out lives. Anything 'ol thing we want is right there for us...
I understand that these woman just want to be happy and loved.. who doesn't?
I wondered this weekend, are we moving past and going forward, or just moving into the past?
"Worry..worry worry worry worry. Worry just will not seem to leave my mind alone.."
"Worry, oh worry worry worry worry sometimes it feels like this worry is my only friend.."
"She good to me. She good to me. mmmmmmm. mmmm. mmmm."
-Trouble Ray LaMontagne

I think that after letting someone down (very nicely) this weekend and standing firm on my decision to just be friends he kinda forced me to define what the hell it is I am looking for. Ugh it's never fun to have to actually use friend zone in a conversation with someone. Never. But I did and what I found out is that I don't want to just "mess around" anymore. Neither do I want to hop into a barefoot and prego role any time soon. But I think that I can honestly say I feel ready for that great new person whom I can be serious with again.


Ok now wish me luck!

1 comment:

  1. The Friend Zone-how well I know you! Some of my sweetheart's best guy friends have even created a mock-government that runs mine!

    It's never easy to let someone down and change their idea of the course of your relationship, but the temporary awkwardness will be forgotten when you meet someone who has what you're looking for, whatever it is.