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So this weekend I met up with fella number two: the "Diamond Back".

I met up with him and his friends at a restaurant/bar/night club..it was a confusing place LOL and also a reminder that I am not that hip. BUT my hair was in a super cute bun thanks to my new giant bobby pins and casual dark jeans, belt, grey v neck t shirt and heels.

The entire night I laughed. I laughed so hard my face hurt..its the best kind of laughter I think.

It's nice that there is a familiarity and still so much to find out about. I like him. I like shark. I may be in trouble. Because now I like them both.

Another date is in place with the Diamond Back for this Friday. We shall see how that goes.

The rest of the weekend was spent lovin up on the birthday boy and frantically making these for the big party!

So last week I wanted to address something that someone said to me here at work. Then when I read a post by a favorite blogger Dancing Branflake about a smilier theme, I thought I'd pause on it and decide what exactly I wanted to say about the exchange.

So here is what was said:

Coworker A: Oh here comes Bridgette..I think she is the only one left... soon though.. very soon..

Gaggle of coworkers: {Giggles}

Me: Ummm what are you talking about? Soon what?

Coworker A: You're next to have kids.. any day now I bet you'll come in and tell us your having a baby!

Me: Yeah.... did you hit your head or something? No way sister!

 {all smiles even though I am secretly soooo annoyed with this topic}

Coworker M: Oh so you're one of those selfish people...

Me: Excuse me!? {shocked!}

Coworker M: You're just too selfish and self involved to ever have children I guess...

Stunned now and holding back every smart snarky remark that was flying through my head.. I paused and took in every one of the faces staring back at me nervously...

Me: yyy.eea...aaa...hhh.... that must be it....?

The other girls laughed and kept talking about how there is "something n the water" and the when and the how they found out they were pregnant.....

I walked away feeling so mad.. and so angry.. Where do I even begin? It was sooo.. rude.. so..sooo mean. Normally I don't take any ones anything, for any reason! But these days I seem to be just stuck in a state of shock.. give them a passive aggressive word or two.. and walk away.. still stunned! Whats happened to me? Is the holding back a sign of maturity? For surly to bark back at this ritious piece of work woman wouldn't really be very beneficial. Nor would a brawl have been very professional. I wasn't even IN the conversation! I was brought into it.. it was a drive by attack and conversational trap!

No, I am not sure I do want children. And I think that just because a person CAN do something, doesn't mean they should. Especially when that "thing" is creating life. Another whole person. And isn't it sort of the opposite of selfish for me to dicide that I should not have a child right now because I am minus a serious relationship where I am in love with the father, and have zero money to my name, and am planning a trip across the country to move! Wouldn't it be supremely selfish for me to then decide after knowing all of that, that this child wouldn't "have it all"? Wouldn't have all of me, and wouldn't have the best possible chances.. to continue to just have a baby because I can.... to what? To prove to other woman that I am this all knowing, life giving being? Pff.

To quote the Practical Magic Auntie "{Snifff} There's the distinct smell of bull.shit!"

I'm so calling BS on this one ladies.

I have nothing against babies. In fact in recent months I have learned I quite love them in fact. A sweet warm little innocent being! Love it. Toddlers... eh.. not my fav little people stage. It's the testing boundaries phases.. the first of many.. and it's a very loud and whiny phase. Blah. But none of this means that I HATE children. That all I want in life is me me me! And that I can't stop and think about other people long enough to get knocked up because I'm stuck in front of some mirror making kissy faces at myself.

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Here is my final thought: For a few years know I have learned the key to the choices I make. Ready for it? Intention. I believe that if I decided to have a child right now it would be selfish. I would not be thinking of the child and where I am in my life, and how that will effect this child. I think that when my intentions are FOR the child,  I will have created a life that will welcome, and support a child in all the best ways it can.. then that will be the best time to have a baby. Not when there is "something in the water", not when all my friends are pregnant too and. "oh wont it be fun to match and have double baby showers", and certainly not when I already have several children, am a single parent, and can hardly make ends meet as it is... will I ever decide that that is the time to have another child.

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And because I want to end on a happy and selfish note ;) I REALLY want this blouse.. so cute right?

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Tales of the Weekend

{please ignore the cheese smile}

Last night i went out with the Shark to dinner and a movie. A LATE dinner and movie.

Ok let me tell you the tales of my heart attack!

So I am driving over there, belting out a sick tune {the newest Carrie Underwood} when I hang a u-turn to park the correct way out side his house when my {automatic}car stalls! Just stops! My steering wheel locked up, I am rolling forward towards these small children who are NOT paying attention. So I SLAM as hard as I can (WITH BOTH FEET) on my brake and flip it into reverse. Then, somehow still having any momentum at all I start to back into someones yard! This is when I put my emergency break on and sit. Sit in freaked out "WHAT THE HELL just happened" silence.

 I tried to restart the car and got NOTHIN! Twice!! I am literally two houses down from his.

 I call him. No answer.

I call him again. No answer.

 I text him

I call trusty bff Underwood to help me think what my next step is. Finally we decide

One: I need to calm the f down.

Two: the car isn't going anywhere..anymore.

Three: go get the shark and see if he can help.

UGH.

I clicked my way down the block to his house where he had just come outside and sees I am frazzled. He climbs in and starts it with no problem and pulls it into his driveway. He mixes me a slammin cranberry vodka and then we continue on with our night as planned.

 But Lordy!

Last Saturday this little guy and I {along with momma Underwood of course} went to party City to pick out birthday toys, treats, and themes. he picked a Pink cake and Dora. LOL We died. Then he settled on Toy Story and we bought it all and left the store before he changed him mind again. He is adorable.

{kind of a dark shot sorry}

yet another attempt at the "Bump" and to have better hair when I go out into public Saturday night...

yeah it ended up in a pony because it is hotter then blazes out here and my sista and I went to a bar/club that is inside/outside. yucko. sweaty-o

{also my butt looked GIANT in about three of the four pre shots!}

Sunday was my last day house/puppy sitting. So I spent the day cleaning up, and baking Welcome Home cupcakes in an attempt to decorate them like sunflowers.. mmmm not so sure how they turned out.. oh Well. They loved them and thats all that matters right :)

When we went out on Saturday night I decided to branch away from the normal beer I am usually seen slugging and try a Chocolate Martini. It was good! Strong but good!

 Then a bunch of dudes put their grubby little hands on it and I lost interest in the drink.

Yesterday I attempted some healthy blueberry and {my fav} blackberry bars.

Although they are very tasty, and I cut the sugar in it by about a fourth, they came out more of a crumble mess..and less like a bar... what can ya do right?

 I am sure I'll be trying this again.. after I eat the entire cake pan that it :) mmmmm cake.

All in all Ladies. I baked, cleaned, freaked and boogied down these last few days.. and each one of those days my hair has been done, make up on, and nails painted {no chips}

I'm feeling like a real big kid!